im fucking pissed. but im not gonna comment on anything here.

on the other hand. training was damn fun. funny la. isaac and keming the jokers. and not forgetting moen. (:

fucking matter had to dampen my spirits.

seriously. some people really should eat shit.

im soooooooooo slack today! omg. ><

supposed to wake up at 8.30am. then i snoozed my phone alarm till 9am. then. i decided to watch lost and some japanese anime. all the way till 3pm. and i went for training.

and to think i intended to do my english essay plan today. lol.

training was. full house. lots and lots of people. and isaac came back. haha. that sick mind ass. : /. he's darn funny la. playing with him is. funny.

physical was rather slack yea. today i actually felt quite glad that i went for bishan training. ((:.

so now im back. contemplating whether i should really do my english essay. arghh.

tuesday.
so i was supposed to be free by tuesday. but the chem teacher had to come in. and tell us that chem eoi has been postponed to thursday. not a very nice thing to hear. english at the end of the day. and it WASN'T easier than the first paper. and mr toh claimed it was much easier. anyway. vivian and i stayed back to do the tissue culture medium for the rose. and it was really fun. went out with peiting later. was supposed to go with yunting and qiuping as well. but they went home cause they weren't in the mood. lol. me and peiting bought the card for ms ang. and we ate at the japanese restaurant at cineleisure. it's nice! (:. we talked lots and lots. and i think i really got to know peiting much much much better. got home and actually managed to finish my last chinese book review for the term. (:. got it off my mind for the rest of the week.

wednesday.
so wednesday. nothing much. went for training at bishan. lik.e first time this month. was okay i guess. just wasn't used to it somehow. went for ascension mass with denise later. (:

thursday. chem eoi over. it was crappy. no one actually finished the paper. and i didn't even check it. but who cares anyway. got back physics paper. i just passed. 19/36. but who cares. training at tanjong pagar. it was pretty slack i guess. sprained my ankle while playing with coach wilson.

friday was sian. me and sipei and qiuping played snap before chinese lesson. haha. amusing and noisy game! everyone was staring at us when we whacked the table. heh. qiuping elaine and i went to kfc at far east for lunch. elaine left at around 4.30. and me and qiuping walked about. far east. then wisma. then heeren. all the way till almost 7.30. we talked for so long. ((:.

saturday. back to school at 8am. to discuss june camp. now i cant go for class outing cause one of the dry run dates clashes with it. argh. anyway. did practically nothing. slacked mostly and everyone was playing games in the comp lab and all till 11. discussed practically nothing. and if we were really on task. we would have finished in half an hour. i really felt it was quite a waste of time. my brother finally got his motorola razr v3i after dinner later.

wasting my life anyway right now. holidays finally here.

but seriously, there's no such thing as a holiday. just normal days when you can choose to wake up a few hours later, and possibly go out a few times.

it just sucks. but i guess i wouldn't ask for anything more. it isn't exactly a real holiday, but it's slightly better than the usual shit during normal school.

2 more papers to go.

english retest. and chem paper.

im gonna spend the whole weekends mugging like crazy.

yesterday was boring. was looking forward to the end of the day every minute in school. was looking forward to going home early and taking a nap. but no. i had to stay back till 4pm. typing out stuff for june camp. friggin tired and brain drained.

freak. dont think i have enough time to study chem. movie outing later with the company. mass later in the evening. class tomorrow in the afternoon.

sheesh. dont even think im typing properly. doesn't seem to make sense.

I was thinking that life would be slacker after today, when chinese and math is over. and i would be left with english, which i do not have to study for, chem spa, and chem eoi.

and then suddenly, a whole load of stuff comes down on me. i need to finish another chinese book review, and one jian bao by week10. and i need the whole weekend to study for chem eoi. saturday will be partially gone since there will be some company movie screening in the morning, and mass in the evening.

how to finish my work and study for loads of stuff? argh.

this week. i need to understand titration calculations by thursday. chem spa. and today i just got assigned with the task to ensure i get all the information for june camp activities and collate them by thursday.

omg. how. how. how.

bottomline is. i hate chem.

math and chinese tomorrow. i hope im prepared enough for math.

the thought of english re-test on tuesday pisses me off. at least the teacher claims it will be easier and shorter.

chem spa on thursday gets me nervous. i have no freaking idea how to do chem calculations. argh.

been mugging math everyday since friday.

well. i guess im beginning to love math again.

reflections are nerve-wrecking.

the whole level has to retake english compre.

argh wth.

some teacher accidentally gave the comprehension passage in a stack of comprehension practices to her class.

bleah. feel quite suay. =/.

wasted our 2 hours on tuesday la!

oh. anyway. took a long nap after school. decided to skip training to catch up on sleep. : D. i slept all the way from 3 to 7. haha!

my eyes actually don't feel tired right now. (:

omg. physics test was _.

studying for ss now. i think im gonna flunk. i dont know anything about governance.

or crap about openness to feedback.

or shit about the principals of good governance.

i don't know how to cross refer to other sources to state the reliability.

and i don't know any whatever contextual knowledge.

arghh. i just looked at my ss notes and i think i'm gonna die memorizing the contextual knowledge crap.

shouldn't have slept during ss lessons. but then again, i cant help it. :/.

f_ la. :/

i feel quite accomplished today. finished one chinese book review. (: yay

my dad and brother went to tan tock seng hospital at 4.30. they're still not back. my grandma is sick. coughing up blood. i pray that she'll be fine. it hurts to think about anyone never appearing in your life again. yes it hurts bad. yet you can't do anything to stop it.

haven't eaten dinner. my mum told me to eat tomorrow's breakfast first. im not hungry.

i'm waiting for my dad to buy back my dinner.

i'm waiting for lots of things.

i don't know whether i should stop waiting and forget it.

blog hiatus. probably wont be blogging for a long long long time. mid years around the corner. and i am preparing for it. shall not spend too much time on the computer. a source of distraction and fatigue.

bio spa today. well. i managed to get all the solutions right i think. the only stupid thing i did was to drop a pipette on the floor. =X. miss ang was staring at me. omg. lol.

2.4km run today. was pacing with elaine. 14.15min. very very very disappointed. but well. we started quite some seconds later cause elaine was tying her shoelaces when mrs wee blew the whistle. and she stopped and i had to stop to get her going too. i realised something. when you have to encourage someone to keep going, you yourself cant stop. i think it made me force myself to go on. still. im gonna train for next year already. at the rate i'm going, i probably cant maintain my expectations for next year.

okay. im tired. gonna watch lost! : D

sore feet.

I decided that I should stop clicking archives in the previous blog.

I mean, why should I keep looking back to the past.

The future's nice and bright, why should I remember the (mostly unhappy) history?

It's time to let go.